Surprises

Surprises

Some awful
Some awesome
These acts that leave me momentarily speechless.
We can spend or lives spinning our wheels.
All of the 'what ifs' and 'if onlys' filling our minds.
Only to find that the excitement,or the fret that has been consuming us was all for not.
I have,on many occasion,found myself running through an entire conversation in my head , my side and the response, my retort and theirs. Working myself into a frenzy based on an 'imaginary' conversation. In some cases I have even talked myself out of having a conversation with others regarding something of importance, urgency, or that I am extremely passionate about merely because the imagined conversation had such a horrible outcome. How silly is that. How selfish as well. I've decided to make a conscious effort not to predict the outcome but to take it all in stride. I will no longer avoid the uncomfortable just to protect myself from the truly unforeseeable. Open and honest communication without expectation, hmm what a novel idea.