Misery (3 word Wednesday )

3 Word Wednesday
(Misery hollow shallow)

Misery loves company
You grip with talons
Piercing my thin skin
With your shallow ways
You care not that you have caused me pain.
To your surprise, as you rip me to shreds trying to get to the heart of me, I am hollow.
Jokes on you
You shall not bring me into your misery today.

Dumbfounded

Dumbfounded

Slip through the cracks
Too much work
Not enough time to commit
Not enough heart to care
The public school system has become a vortex
I stand in awe today at decisions made, out of my control that though we are a much more advanced society than we were when I attended school, the courses of action have become obscenely aggressive. I understand a no tolerance policy for weapons, a no tolerance policy for bullying, a no tolerance policy for abusive behavior, but a no tolerance policy for poor grades? Really? So the public school systems answer to academic struggle is to not recommend tutoring or after school programs, or any plans to get a struggling child back on track, or even to recommend outside help in addition to regular attendance of their school. Nope. Their answer is to force the parents to withdrawal the child from school to attend class elsewhere... Needless to say if this is the way that a struggling child is treated, someone whom is intelligent, thoughtful,respectful,and full of heart is treated by their public school then honestly I'd much rather said child not be attending such an irreverent school. There is a good outcome to this situation as there are wonderful charter schools available that offer soooo much more. However in the midst of this unfortunate turn of events there is a child that was not given a voice, not given an option, not given a choice in his academic future , was blindsided by the only academic system he has known, and was left without even the opportunity to say goodbye to classmates,or teachers , within 1 hour everything he knew to be, all that was safe in his academic world was flipped upside down , that part I am truly heartbroken about. Absolutely dumbfounded.

Bewildered

We grew 
You beat
Us like shit
You did treat
Violently maddening 
Heart cold and saddening 
Love hate 
Love hate
Crazy
The need for your love becomes hazy
Your ill
We cannot ever hurt you
Your ill
We can never dessert you
We've long since grown
Yet I still feel overthrown
With your cunning nature you do deceive me
So strong and stubborn at times
Yet week,meek, wounded at others
My compassionate heart falls prey to your twisted ways and once again, just as I begin to feel like your loved and trusted child, you strike, no longer with the fist but now through the mind
My defenses will strengthen with time
Sad but true
To this day
I'm still angry with you.

Tic Toc

Tic tock 
Tic tock
The time goes by
Tic tock
Tic tock
How time does fly
It's like an hour glass with a large hole instead of a tiny one. 
The sand pours through 
It leaves you behind
Until you realize that it's almost gone
Then your thrust forward through the hole 
Sifting through the sands to see what you have missed. 
How does this happen?
Where DOES the time go?
You can't stop it or go in reverse, trust me I've tried.
You just keep going forward as time goes on by. So hold on to the memories treasure the moments. Make the most of every one , live life to it's fullest and love with ALL of your heart. Don't let the time you have left be for not. Because when it comes right down to it, you can't ever get those moments back. 
JMC

Twist

Twist

Falling down going up the down inside the out trying to stay dry in the wet. 

Back story,
My brother and I had many opportunities growing up to run down the up escalators and up the down, we were having conversation of this today, and I said that I liked going down the up rather than up the down because I always fell down the up the down... Which began this twisted thought process, enjoy;)

Out of Control

I wrote this some time ago and reflect on it from time to time to keep things in perspective.

Out of control

People,places,things change. Out of my control.
People live,people die. Out of my control.
Your choices,your decisions, your actions. Out of my control. 
The weather,the sun,the stars. Out of my control.
My choices,my actions,my fait. In my control. 
My hopes,my dreams, my aspirations. In my control.
My life.is.in.MY.control.
My choices and actions or lack there of define my life. I can choose to live a happy and fulfilling life.
 I can choose to allow others to determine my fait.
 I can choose to be in control of my life. 
That doesn't make me evil or selfish. It allows me to be the best person I can possibly be for myself,my family,my coworkers, or be the worst. It's my choice, it's in my control.

Drip drip- For Three Word Wednesday

Drip drip-for Three Word Wednesday
Erode; verb: (Of wind, water, or other natural agents) gradually wear away (soil, rock, or land); gradually destroy or be gradually destroyed.

Heart; noun: A hollow muscular organ that pumps the blood through the circulatory system by rhythmic contraction and dilation; one's mood or feeling; the central or innermost part of something; verb: Like very much, love.

Observe; verb: notice or perceive (something) and register it as being significant; watch (someone or something) carefully and attentively; fulfill or comply with (a social, legal, ethical, or religious obligation).

Drip drip
Drip drip, one drop,two drops, drip drip, when will it stop?Observe my heart as it is covered in your acid. It begins to erode until it explodes as the walls have become to thin. My heart was once your toy. The destruction you did enjoy. Drip drip becomes a splash. My heart has turned to ash and all that remains in it's place is a stain and a puddle of your venomous drain.

Anger Drain

Anger drain

Wasted energy this anger thing
It saps the very life out of you
Anger and resentment the brothers of evil. 
Tiny little pin pricks at first, then they begin to feed.
They devour the blood and oxygen as they grow larger inside your soul. Turning you black inside and leaving a nothingness in their wake. Where once stood beauty,love, and kindness now resides an empty hole. 

Locket In My Pocket

I've got a locket in my pocket that holds a special thing.
A locket in my pocket that holds a treasured being.
Open up the locket and inside you will find truth,honesty,integrity,happiness,sharing,joy,unconditional love. Struggles overcome,battles that were won.
Your triumphs inspire me to always try so hard. 
So dad to you I say,
Thank you for the locket
You've shown me what life means in oh so many ways each and every day!

Exhausted

Muscles so tense they are on fire.
Brain mush
Mouth slack
Eyes drooping
Exhausted
It begins with a quick rub of the eyes
A slip of the tongue
Did I just say that?
The words in my head were in order,
but the sounds that issued from my mouth were unintelligible
Overwhelmed and sleep deprived I press on until my head finally hits the pillow
Just to get up and do it all over again.
Exhuasted.